::Blows away the dust::
Yes, it has been almost one year since my last posting on here. I have no excuses except for living life and learning more about myself. I came back because I am still getting visitors to my blog to my surprise and also because, as an introvert, blogging is a great outlet to express myself to many more individuals. Truly God loves me too much to allow me to hold inside many of the life lessons He has taught me through my trials, failures, mistakes, and experiences. I am getting to the point where it just doesn't feel right anymore to hoard such knowledge and wisdom from others who may really benefit from such information.
I am definitely not the same person now as I was at the beginning of the year; I am not where I desire to be for sure but am glad I am growing into a more confident person in my own skin. The biggest lessons adhering to my heart lately are: DO NOT be afraid to be an awesome ME and DO NOT live out my life as OTHERS would see it. This does not mean I should not strive to seek out wisdom from those who God has placed in my life to help guide me. Rather these two lessons have continuously encouraged me to move FEARLESSLY and FAITHFULLY forward with the purpose God has beset before without FEARING how I may disapprove others simply on the basis that my current route toward my goals is different from what some may expect of me. My road has been difficult due to lots of misguided choices and my failed attempt(s) to please others, but I have honestly learned so much about God, myself, and others throughout my challenges. My attitude is not so much of being nonchalant but more so being focused on ME and my personal talents and how I can use them to please God rather than please others. I have lived longed enough in depression, anxiety, and self pity to know that these WILL do no good for my goals and dreams so why not try to be honest with myself and face life under a more positive spin? ::Snapping out of INSANE mode::
I have started asking God SINCERELY(with lots of tears) what lesson(s) is He trying to teach me in my circumstances. Why fight full force against Him knowing He only wants to perfect me and develop me into a better servant to carry out the purpose He has created specifically for me. Most times, I realized all along that He has been answering my prayers (for more strength, more confidence, more patience, etc) in ways not expected. Hence, His mysterious ways against my limited understanding. I am grateful for each lesson albeit many have been HARD, but I KNOW God is working to transform my thinking of one more spiritually sound. I have this burning desire to be the best I can be in Him and that starts by having the right mentality. What a man thinks, he is. This may seem irrelevant to some but this is the foundation I need strengthened if I have any aspirations to do the "impossible" through Him. I have not figured out all of life's secrets for I struggle just like the next person, but I am definitely a work in progress and know that the basis of all success begins with FAITH.
Besides gaining some much needed spiritual and mental revelations, a lot has happened over the course of this year. The highlights are marriage, changes in career aspirations, and engaging in the challenges of an ever blossoming toddler.
As far as hair goes? I will simply say this: the longer my daughter's hair has gotten, the shorter mine has gotten. It is literally the shortest it has ever been. Right now, it has not been my season to upkeep long hair while learning how to care for hers and manage life especially during my first year of marriage (which I am loving by the way!). Don't despair, my goal is obtain healthy long hair, which I am certain can be achieved in 3-5 years tops. Some may say that is too long but I say that time will pass anyway. :)
I plan to discuss all these things and more starting in January. In the meanwhile, I will work on revamping the blog little by little. Don't want to create big promises right now with so much going on, but I do have small goals set aside to help keep me motivated.
I truly hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable holiday season! Be blessed and BE.You! :) (Taking my own advice.)
Welcome to my blog! This space has been used over the past several years to document mainly my natural hair journey and several different aspects of my life such as spiritual matters, my jewelry design, and parenting. I will from time to time post on this blog but my newly revamped blog can be found at BeautifullyCurled.com. Here you will find much recent updates about my hair journey along with my daughter's and so much more. Hope you will come by and visit and thanks for stopping by this blog. Be blessed. -Kris